change..

I just watched a commercial about pledging to change that oprah winfrey actually produced in support of Obama. I have to say it really touched my heart. I realize that I came into the new year with all sorts of ambitions and goals, and after not even a week I dropped them all and fell into a complete slum, making bad decisions and becoming more depressed once again. Thankfully I have yet again learned from my mistakes and have been picking up the pieces. I am proud to report that I have recieved excellent remarks from my boss and supervisor which makes me feel like even when I come home from a client who I feel like I haven't helped a bit, like I am doing something worth while. Back to the commercial, I am so grateful that Obama is our president. i know he cannot change everything, our economy is going to take awhile to recover. But when I see how much he has brought already to the world. I have never seen so many of my friends and my age group get so excited over politics. We all really felt like we were a part of this election and I don't know if that is something that comes with getting older and understanding politics and the importance of our letting our voices be heard or not but it was very powerful. I feel like he really gives such a great message of hope and that we can change if we make the effort, each of us individually as well as our country as a whole. Anyway it has just made me get back to my original new years resolutions which were a lot but I made a list and promised to at least try to do one at a time. For one thanks to my aunt Sydney I am trying to make sure that all the lights are off, I turn the heat off when I'm gone too. I am making an effort to encourage my friends and even my clients to be less wasteful, saving water bottles, and not using plastic bags. I also want to better myself and I am going to begin to try to do my Pilate's in the morning again.  The list is much longer but I really don't want to focus on too much at once. I also have encouraged people, friends of mine and client's and co-workers to look at UNICEF online. It really amazes me what people don't know that's going on around the world. We think we have it bad. I see some pretty bad stuff with some of my kids and it kills me, and when they think it can't get any worse I explain to them that we have the ability to help, some countries have nothing. For having a bummer of a day, I actually feel very motivated tonight and I feel like I am back on the path I want to be on heading towards one day hopefully really being able to affect change.

peace, love, serenity..